Today there are several of our friends who are experiencing their very first father's day with their wonderful new child and my heart rejoices! Yet, today there are also several who are experiencing their very first father's day without their wonderful old dad and my heart breaks.
Today marks the first Father's Day without my sweet "deddy". He passed away unexpectedly last July 6th at the age of 53- on the night of our Couples Shower {month before our wedding}- which he DJ'd and left early because he thought he had bad indigestion/chest pain. We got a call at 12:30 am that he had a heart attack and by the time we got to the hospital it was too late to say goodbye. I think that's what hurts the most. You would think after almost a year, that the pain would cease - and by the Lord's mercy it has a bit - but there are still days when I'll hear a song that will bring back the pain and bring on the secret tears that no one ever sees. I think to myself, "Lord, will this pain ever go away?"
"Then I pray, Lord please don't let the memories go away!". The memories which I cling to so dearly...the memories that can still bring a smile to my face and warm my heart...the memories that keep me going...the memories that keep him near.
My daddy was an amazing man who never met a stranger, was full of life, and most importantly a man who would drop everything to come running for his "baby girls" and son. He loved the Lord, sang for the Lord, and studied the Word. I know he is in a much better place and that's what gives me such peace within.
This poem is dedicated to him and anyone else who is without a father today. May the memories stay vivid forever, as the Lord helps the pain slowly fade away...
If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
We would walk right up to Heaven
And bring you back again
No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose youNo one will ever know
But know we know you want us
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store
Since you’ll never be forgotten
We pledge to you today
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you’ll always stay
Author Unknown
In Loving Memory of my dad, Charles Wendell Hall, Jr
July 3rd 1955 - July 6th 2008
"My spirit is alive because of righteousness"
I could never make it through without Him...
"The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation" - Psalm 18:2kjv
{below: one of the gifts to our dad last Father's Day was this photo of me and my sister (left) clinging to our dad and showing him how much he was loved. He too, never missed a moment to show us how much he loved us and how proud he was of us, and that is the best gift a child can ever ask for. Parents - tell your children how much you love them each and every day and children - honor your parents and never miss an opportunity to tell them you love them.
You may not ever get the chance to tell them again.}
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